Writing a novel turned out to be a ridiculously hard thing to do.
Three years in, and with a 130,000 word draft in hand, I am still asking myself: What is this story about? This being my first one, my self-confidence gets quite frankly shaken to its core every few months. The closer I get, the bigger the doubt. *audibly gulps down another cup of coffee*
I am currently editing and ‘reverse engineering’ my outline and story structure. I am deep into figuring out how to piece the different parts of the story together in one tight and cohesive timeline. As I do this, I am faced with my own demons everyday. Bless their souls, they try to convince me that I have no solid ground beneath me with this novel.
My response? Build a goddamn ground beneath my feet!
A lot of sweat, scribbles and tears are going into my outline to counter these thoughts. But in order to sustain that (and my mental health), I am using two fantastic weapons I have collected in my arsenal: Stillness and Self-Compassion. More about the latter next week.
Today I want to share with you this wonderful book of poems that has brought me much sanity and stillness this month. It reminded me that I am exactly where I need to be, and that each moment - including this grueling wrestling match with my outline - is to be enjoyed for what it is worth.
Check out Beautifully Mundane. I am very proud of my friend Alison for her travel and writing adventure that brought us these incredibly grounding poems from South America.
I read it twice in one weekend! It is short, sweet, AND profound! Yes all three. She will take you from Colombia to Argentina, all while inspiring you to find stillness and realize that you are where you need to be after all.
See you next week, with more on Self-Compassion and how I use it daily it to conquer the impossible (whether that is writing a novel or running a 5k).
May you have the stamina for whatever it is that you are pursuing this week,
Omar
And what an inspiring journey it's been! Thanks for letting us all in on the process. Keep shining, keep writing!
Your smile brought a smile to my face :) I'm so proud of you and everything you're doing and I miss you very much! xx