I am the unloved,
The darkness inside
Party of one
But still nowhere to hide
I am your shadow
Your sadness,
Your plight,
I am that one bully
That you never could fight
I am your best friend
I’ll tell you the truth,
I am your dad’s approval
Just kidding, that will never come through
Your addictions?
You ask
Yeah I run that train
Choo Choo, Next stop
Here come Withdrawal pains,
That scorched earth valley,
Yeah that’s me
Past them luscious verdant plains
I am your youth
Just slipping away
You thought it forever
But guess what
Today, collection day
You fidget you fret
You ask me to stay
You got down on your knees
Even started to pray
I am not your lover
Your whims I don’t obey
I gave you the sun
You didn’t make the hay
Ok ok
I think I have been mean
So I will try to come clean
Or rather I will tell you
What is simply not me
I am not ….
That dumb curated identity you constantly tout,
You can repeat it, and yeah you can shout
But still,
Nobody cares what you think it is about
Something important,
You seem to have done without
A little goes a long way
But maybe just maybe
Introduce some doubt?
I am telling you brother
Oh don’t you dare pout!
What you think is original
Is just too played out
I am not
That 2 dollar donation you made to save the planet
You slept like a baby that night
Made out like a bandit
I hate that fake chivalry
Those crocodile tears
I hate the moral high ground
You claim as your sphere
I am not
The conversations you start,
Those are just so trite
You prance around in parties
Going left and going right
Pontificating
Gesticulating
Oh you are flexing that muscle tight!
You sound like an idiot
You know that right,
Even if the girl you pulled
Still sucked your dick that night
I pity you though
Your attempts to always stay chipper,
For it is me, dummy
The missing arrows in your positivity quiver
You tried to kill me once, remember?
Ended up just busting your liver
Why do you have to be like this?
Your redemption
I promise I can deliver
If you just just sit with me once
Maybe take me to dinner
Or tell me I no longer scare you
When you pass me in the mirror
Beautiful one Khaled. That sends shivers down my spine every time.